Sunday, March 22, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Now that I am almost 7 months pregnant the questions of.........do you know what you are having are MORE frequent. People do NOT like to be surprised. Josh and I have always told the ultrasound techs that we do not want to find out.......the looks of surprise and "torture" is displayed on their faces.....EVERY TIME.
Well, from the beginning of this pregnancy, I have really hoped we were having a girl. I really try not to get my hopes up, but I can think of so many reason why it would be perfect. Now, if only God had the same superficial reasons.
Saraa, my neice, needs a girl cousin. The way our family seems to have a lot of boys.....well, we need to have at least two in a row.
Oh, not to mention the fact that I really want to have a baby girl to dress up again, oh, and it would save me about $250 if I have a girl, and an extra trip to a doctor around 8 days old.
Now, I am posting this so that it can be said WHY I think we are having a girl.......
When I was pregnant with Jael I remember many times feeling like we were going to have a girl because her name was the ONE that I felt God gave us. Jael's middle name is Abeni; it means a girl prayed for, and long awaited. How perfect is that? Josh and I both liked the boy's name, but it just wasn't as fitting.
With all three boys it was the same way......the boy's name was just "perfect," or we didn't have a girl's name that we really liked. Ezekiel Savage's name means, "the Lord's strength is WILD." THAT name was the passion of our hearts. Levi Joseph has SO many reasons for his name; the meaning, "a union supported by Jehovah."
Now, the name we have picked out for a girl is Shallah Rianne, it means "river of grace." At the moment, we do not even HAVE a boy's name. About 2-3 months ago, I received a prophecy over this pregnancy, that it would be "full of grace!" After that, we talked about the fact that the Hebrew number 5 means "grace!"
Maybe I am overworking this a bit, but even Josh will tell you that he has a feeling we will have a girl. Names have always meant so much to me, and it always seems to play such a big part in the gender of our children. We always favor one name over the other.....and this time it's the girl's name!!! At this point I sure hope so.........because I need God to give us a great name for a boy.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Once our minds have decided something is important-like the crying of a baby-the RAS will bring it to your attention every time. I find this fascinating, because I have noticed that since having children I can tune out everything.........but still manage to wake up at the slightest whimper from my children. I don't even HEAR the blaring of Josh's alarm clock, but I can hear MINE, if I set it. I noticed the other day how our programming is so different for all of us. I pointed out the sound of a train the other day, and I asked Josh if it ever bothers him. We have lived in this house for over a year, and that was the FIRST time he even knew the train was close enough to hear. WHY could I hear it? Do I have an attachment to trains, since my father worked for the railroad for 40 years?
I have been searching to hear more of God. You know, that "still small voice." Sometimes I have even "beat myself up" thinking that I cannot hear Him. But I am now wondering if I have been hearing Him for longer than I realized, that His voice has become a part of my RAS? Do I hear His promptings and not even realize? Have I made hearing His voice vital to my daily life? Have I filtered out the negative worldly distractions? Of course, there is always more hearing to be done......so, I am not saying that I am done learning.
But, my thought was this........our RAS records everything and will concentrate our attention on what we have previously programmed to be important. I can thank my mother for giving credit to God so many times for even the little things, so have I just grown up knowing that God speaks ALWAYS?
For example, the other day I was driving home from church in Josh's car. It was about 9 pm, and I really felt like I should not go my "normal way home." I decided to take the highway, not the back roads. I was about 4 miles from home, when the car died. My cell phone was dead. I remember being panicked, and I thanked God for the prompting to NOT go the back roads. However, I didn't FEEL like God was TELLING me to go the highway, when I went??? I want to KNOW that it's HIM....and then obey.
I realize I am just rambling, but I know that the few who read this blog will have some insight for me. PLEASE, I need your thoughts!
I don't want to lose my sensitivity to those things that I know are valuable. I have no doubt that God's voice is valuable. Does hearing God's voice just become a part of you? Am I missing something by not knowing BEFOREhand that it's Him?
Do you learn to just filter out the negative so much, that you only hear the positive? Do you become so sensitive to His Word and Spirit that you KNOW when it's not Him?
Staying positive about hearing God will certainly allow you to hear more and more of His voice. I realize the significance of RAS now more than ever. I can go outside and see the beauty of the mountains, and I never grow weary of their magnificence. Some of my Colorado natives have grown complacent.....
I do know my heart's cry:
Sunday, March 15, 2009
(oh, we had it all made and ready in 30 minutes.....)
His tummy was SO full and tight!
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Homemade jewelry really is the most unique thing. What a great giveaway.
Cinnamon Sticks GUEST GROSGRAIN GIVEAWAY!!!!
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Friday, March 6, 2009
This was the letter Jael left for the tooth fairy. Josh thinks she learned how to be so grateful from me; I guess I will take that as a compliment. Part of the reason for the extra kindness was because the last tooth she put under her pillow did not have a letter, because I wouldn't let her leave a letter to the tooth fairy that sounded demanding. Needless to say she only got a dollar. The big problem is that the tooth fairy left dollar coins, which are getting a bit harder to acquire.
Well, the letter worked......she got her three dollar coins. She is saving her money for a Princess alarm clock, so that she can learn how to sleep in. Yes, sleep in!! She has 12 dollars saved, and the alarm clock costs about $35.00. She has a ways to go, but she is doing a good job saving her allowance every week. AND even though it cost the tooth fairy $3.00 for that tooth....it's nicer that she got it because Mommy and Daddy were going to have to pay the dentist $5.00.
Hey, maybe Ezekiel should have gotten the extra $2.00??? He is the reason the tooth is finally out........
Daja tagged me for a meme to take a picture of my favorite things--things that make our home beautiful or functional. I am finally getting around to it, but it's so hard to NARROW it down. It's fun to take a moment and be grateful for all of those things......I am a BLESSED girl.
The Pink Nano Ipod was a COMPLETE surprise present from Josh last year, yes, as you can see it appears that I have been given lots of presents lately. They are certainly grand, if you ask me. When we moved to Colorado I got rid of my CD player because it was only working half the time. I was really sad to see it go, because I love having music playing in the house during the day. I clean better with music "blasting!" Anyway, I was trying to decide if I should buy the same kind of CD player. I liked having a multi-player, so I could have HOURS of continuous play. Josh brought this home, and I LOVE it.
I am sure I could keep taking pictures and listing more things, but I GUESS I will stop. I love looking back and seeing how blessed I am.......abundantly blessed.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
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