Friday, March 12, 2010

Story of Hope and Restoration--Part 43

Set Christ before you and motto!

Josh decided to tell me about how this was the "worst time in his life!"  Hey, wait!  The worst time of YOUR life??? You had a choice?  Why don't you change it, then.  He's the only one who can? And he is making his children go through hell, too! 

Sexually deprived, that was his biggest complaint. If everything was fine, well, that he should be having the best time of his life.  You know, it's all lies.  You can't keep up the efforts.  Josh was putting so much time into this  relationship; he would never be able to keep it up.  The last time he had bought me flowers had been years, and he was spending money on "the best!"  He was using a lot of energy on a lie, and he was going to get worn out. I just knew it.  He never wanted to be a part of her whole family; he didn't want her children. He just wanted fun, well, what woman in her right mind wanted THAT kind of man.  She would just have to find that out.....

Josh felt she had his best interests at heart, and he continued to let me know that she was amazing.  I never understood how he respected her? 

I had to focus on TODAY, battle through TODAY, pray through TODAY.  The past questions were really wearing me out. 

Reveal to me in Your Word who You are. Thank you for allowing me to come into Your presence. I am a work in progress, and You are always working on me, if I let You. Change my heart, O God, renew a right spirit in me. Cast me not away, Lord, and take not thy Holy Spirit from me. I will praise You, Lord, for You are in control, and You have perfect timing. Lord, keep my mind steadfast on You.  Keep me from being double-minded.  Open the floodgates of heaven over Josh. 

Isaiah 42:16

New International Version

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.

Lord, please do not forsake my family. Lead us in ways we could not imagine.