Sunday, March 28, 2010

Story of Hope and Restoration--Part 59

Protecting my own heart started to become an issue. I reconnected with an old friend, and he was very generous in his compliments to me. It felt so good, but I knew it wasn't right. Nothing bad had happened, but the attention scared me. Josh, of course, said he didn't worry.  Wow, when was I going to have a husband who cared about protecting me?  I had to keep protecting myself, for now. Josh certainly wasn't worried.  He said he never thinks I would have a problem.  Well, I believe ANYone can have a problem, if in the wrong place and the wrong time.....or the right place at the right time?  If you do not guard your heart, you are NOT immune.  If you think you are, you are lying to yourself. 

I really wanted to have my fit. I didn't want to do this, in the flesh.  BUT Satan attacking me in my weakness was exactly what he wanted. 

No pit is so deep that He is not deeper still.  Lord, I come to You right now on behalf of my relationship with Josh.  Cause discouragement to be gone, cause Josh to realize that in You he can find all he needs .Help him to hear Your voice, allow him to continue on the road to healin.  Lead him to the place where he is asking for help from others, besides me.  I come against the attack of Satan, right now, in bringing discouragement.  The fight has to continue.  Lord, help him.  Surrougn him with men to help him keep his guard up.  Anytime I bring up something we disagree on, may Josh realize the extent of my hurt. Pour grace on my words, may we both be humble in God's sight. 

I wanted to make sure we didn't allow temporal happiness to take precedence over the possibilty of eternal damnation.  This was a work that needed to be complete, not clouded by instant gratification.