Sunday, March 21, 2010

Story of Hope and Restoration--Part 53

The way up is down; to lay hold you must let go; to be filled you must become empty.  I did not know all of the answers, but I did know that God had gotten me through so much already. He could see me through this, too! 

I wanted a husband who desired me in a pure way, but it was going to be a long road. I felt so used, but I was his wife. I would be that in any way he needed. 

Josh called the other woman's husband and apologized for his behavior; he called her father and apologized, as well.  He had set up some boundries, but it was still heart-wrenching that he wanted to be with her over me.  He struggled those first couple weeks with NO CONTACT, but by this time I had staked my claim. 

I went to her house, and I talked with her. I told her he was sick and to leave him alone. Of course, she promised.  BUT she was sick, too! So, it didn't help all of that much.  They continued to have contact, but after she got it through her head how stupid it was, she contacted me to let me know that he had called her again.  That was it.....last time! I let him know that I knew, and he never did it again.  Step ONE, down......sorta. 

I still had to listen to the garbage...about wishing he had met her 10 years ago, then he wouldn't be dealing with any of this mess.  Now do you see why I called this HELL WEEK?  I knew, to a degree, what I was getting myself into when I said he could come home in ANY condition. 

If I had said NO when he asked to come home.....he would have walked away, for good!  Everything I had said would have been a lie, now I had to walk it out!

1 comments:

Mrs. and Mama K said...

Wow! What a lesson in pride and self-worth...