Most evenings I spend with Josh's parents, and then I would drive home by myself. I had no one to protect me but God. It was good and comforting, but it didn't change the fact that I longed for the arms that were around someone else. It made me sad, angry, and sick. AND even madder when I saw the hurting and suffering that my children felt.
Josh had not spent any time with the kids the whole week; his schedule was just getting too busy. So sad to watch. He seemed to forget that he always said he wanted be at home; he didn't like to go out! These friends that he went out with all of the time didn't realize he was living a lie. AND complaining about how horrible your life was, well, that was a lie, too!
November 11, was the official day I resigned from the title of "Lady Serena!" I told the church that I needed to be available to Josh, not as a pastor's wife, but as his wife. I wanted my standing for my miracle to match up my life and actions. I cryed....the whole church cryed.
By this time, the other woman was spending weekends at Josh's place. A few times I got the courage to text him, "Good morning!" I knew she was there, but I wanted him to feel uncomfortable.
3 years ago
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